pondering my blkgayness
today i've been thinking a lot about how it has come to be that i'm the type of gay black man that other races feel comfortable with? ..unless at night time, when all blk men, clarence thomas included, are all one and the same niggas thats going to snatch ms thangs purse! that i'm the black gay man who has more POC friends than black friends? that i only began watchin ANTM 3 years after the rest of black gay americana had already caught on... blkfags in freakin UTAH probably knew ms tyra's ANTM b4 i did?!
WHATS WRONG WITH ME!?
rofl!
seriously tho i know that there is nothing "wrong" with me, but still i'm like how did this all come to be?! yes, yes many questions. i know this sounds silly for someone of my authenticity (see profile picture) to be thinking about, but it's still that real yall. was it b/c way waaay back in the day i chose Seinfield over Martin? 104 KRBE over 97.9 THE Box? UT-Austin over my sister and brother's alma mater - Texas Southern? (okay, so yes.. BINGO! ding ding ding. "you're the lucky winner!") maybe. or it could be a combo of a lot of different choices, life moments that make me into the robot lovin'-approachable(in daylight hours)-POC friend havin'-blk gay man that i am today.
i ain't goin to even front i was a white-washed hoe some years ago! my dad - who some of you might have had the great pleasure to hear him spin at my birfday party in april - and sister even still gag when they hear me listening to "black music" or doing anything remotely black for that matter. lol. that oreo filling part of me has been scrapped off for some time now though. but i guess (once an oreo, always an oreo! lol. jus kiddin!) years and cities don't change all that i am, was, will be...
lately i've been contemplating cutting off my locks. i can't quite do it yet. all the work and $$ i put up in this head, prevents me from making an Andre-Impulse, but none the less I think about why is it I won't do it. Would I lose the afro-bohemian authenicity that i've clung to - sometimes for dear life and at other times for simple validity in some social circles here in this ciy? If thats the case then, so be it, these locks *are* going to go off.. maybe not today... er or tomorrow... but ONE day, they will. ha! if what i crave is original hair styles and natural hair (blk men we got the decision too easy, a perm? ha! but oohh, on 2nd thought how *real* wld that be!) then a nice shape up with parts, designs will be just as hot.
last friday, while getting my locks maintained and styled at locksnchops (touche!) in manhattan, i saw this sticker in the bathroom:
"we are all born original. most die as copies."
no shade, just something to thank about!
light,
anDre
WHATS WRONG WITH ME!?
rofl!
seriously tho i know that there is nothing "wrong" with me, but still i'm like how did this all come to be?! yes, yes many questions. i know this sounds silly for someone of my authenticity (see profile picture) to be thinking about, but it's still that real yall. was it b/c way waaay back in the day i chose Seinfield over Martin? 104 KRBE over 97.9 THE Box? UT-Austin over my sister and brother's alma mater - Texas Southern? (okay, so yes.. BINGO! ding ding ding. "you're the lucky winner!") maybe. or it could be a combo of a lot of different choices, life moments that make me into the robot lovin'-approachable(in daylight hours)-POC friend havin'-blk gay man that i am today.
i ain't goin to even front i was a white-washed hoe some years ago! my dad - who some of you might have had the great pleasure to hear him spin at my birfday party in april - and sister even still gag when they hear me listening to "black music" or doing anything remotely black for that matter. lol. that oreo filling part of me has been scrapped off for some time now though. but i guess (once an oreo, always an oreo! lol. jus kiddin!) years and cities don't change all that i am, was, will be...
lately i've been contemplating cutting off my locks. i can't quite do it yet. all the work and $$ i put up in this head, prevents me from making an Andre-Impulse, but none the less I think about why is it I won't do it. Would I lose the afro-bohemian authenicity that i've clung to - sometimes for dear life and at other times for simple validity in some social circles here in this ciy? If thats the case then, so be it, these locks *are* going to go off.. maybe not today... er or tomorrow... but ONE day, they will. ha! if what i crave is original hair styles and natural hair (blk men we got the decision too easy, a perm? ha! but oohh, on 2nd thought how *real* wld that be!) then a nice shape up with parts, designs will be just as hot.
last friday, while getting my locks maintained and styled at locksnchops (touche!) in manhattan, i saw this sticker in the bathroom:
"we are all born original. most die as copies."
no shade, just something to thank about!
light,
anDre
posted by Andre Lancaster at
9:17 PM
2 Comments:
there is no comfortable in this day and age, it don't matter what race you are. I wish I could have locks, but I am white and well they would look goofy as hell on me. LOL
By
Messed Up, at 5/08/2006 09:54:00 PM
well i dont completely agree w/ the guy above ... but i think it is about being threatening and non-threatening. there is just something you do or do not give off.
By
Clay, at 5/10/2006 09:22:00 PM
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